23:59

Great so now I'm feeling even more low than before. Banging.
Tonight should be ... interesting.

Also did 2 hours worth of ironing earlier and apparently the next time I do it I've to hang all my dad's stuff up. WTUF!?I actually want to crack right now and flip the fuck out.

This is not good.

This is not heathly.

Fuck sakes just as everything was looking up.

Everytime.

 Everytime my life seems to get a little brighter it crashes down 4 levels than what it was before.

actuallyfuckitall.

Like see with Paul, having a son and another child due by January. I know I'm not going to be the number one person in his life. I know this. I would never ask him to put me before his kids. Never in a million years. But some fucking respect would be appreciated.

Want to harm again.